Monday, March 21, 2011

When I'm Hurting

"WHEN I'M HURTING
It's easier for you to walk away, than it is for you to reach out to me.
It's easier for you to look away, than it is for you to see the depth of my despair.
It's easier for you to look through me, than it is for you to see 'me.'
It's easier for you to distance yourself, than it is for you to really care.
It's easier for you to hear, than it is for you to listen.
It's easier for you to judge, than it is for you to understand.
It's easier for you to label, than it is to get acquainted.
It's easier for you to bask in your joy, than it is for you to feel my pain.
It's easier for you to bewilder at my mysteries, than it is for you to probe deeply into the depths of my soul.

It's easier for me to look away, than it is to let you see the feelings betrayed through my eyes.
It's easier for me to cry, than it is for me to talk.
It's easier for me to walk alone, than it is to risk rejection.
It's easier for me to push you away, than it is for me to be held.
It's easier for me to distance myself, than it is to trust that you won´t hurt me.
It's easier for me to die, than it is for me to face life's challenges.

It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.

If only you'd really look at me and see who I am.
If only you cared enough to reach out when I push you away.
If only you'd hold me, without asking why.
If only you'd acknowledge the validity of my feelings.

But it's the easy roads that are most often taken.
And so I hurt alone.

--Jo A. Witt
Copyright 2000

I came across this poem the other day and it just seems to fit what's inside my head right now. I always take the easy road. Maybe it's time to try the hard roads instead. Maybe then I'll fly.

4 comments:

shah wharton said...

Great find - it speaks volumes. I will add - when i took the easy road I fell inot bad habits - dating the wrong men, trying to feel better by self harma dn booze and drugs, etc. When I decided to make a change, I went for the good guy. It was awkward at first - he didn't act how I expected, he didn't say what I expected. He was good to me, and he asked for less than he offered. These thing naturally turned me off - it was alien and unfamiliar. But I stayed, I decided I deserved him. Eventually. Now I m happier than ever. It's true - take the harder road - you will fly. Eventually! :D X

Elizabeth Young said...

Awesome poem posted, I related to everything it said, and agreed with what Shah shared. Hang in. There's a lot of support out there if we know how to access it. Shah's site is awesome as you know.
One last thing, creativity is SO where it's at! I wonder if we would be so creative if we didn't know such pain in other areas? Makes you think....

Sandra Collins said...

Shah - you and I seem very similar in ways I too have fallen into bad habits booze, drugs ect. I am now just breaking free from that I am at the point where I am not looking for anyone or anything except to make myself better

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