Tuesday, December 15, 2009
I had a conversation with an amazing friend this past weekend and it keeps going through my mind. I was talking about not working and how the job I want the most in the entire world is to be a photographer. My friend wanted to know what is stopping me. The answer to that is Me. I have always been what has stopped me. So here is me trying to overcome my fears and insecurities saying DEAR UNIVERSE I AM GOING TO BE A PHOTOGRAPHER ... there is nothing anyone can do to stop me.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
I can hardly believe it. My beautiful Amber Jane is 10 years old today. I don't feel like I am old enough to have a child who is 10. The time seems to have flown by so fast. I remember back to the day she was born. I was so scared and so very emotional. My whole life I grew up wanting to have family that belonged to me by blood. I know that seems strange but being adopted made me feel like I had no one that belonged to me. I wanted to have children and have the opportunity to be a mom. I am not sure that at that point in my life I realized all of what "being a mom" would entail. As Amber has grown so have I. Every single day I am growing into role of Mom that I have so greatly treasured and cherished.
It has been absolutely amazing watching Amber grow these pat 10 years. She is turning into a beautiful little lady. One I am so very proud of. She is growing and changing so fast I can hardly keep up. Before long there will be no more being tucked in and cuddling. So for now, I am going to hold on just a little tighter when I get t o cuddle.