Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Wordless Wednesday

2 Peas Wednesday Blogger Challenge

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One thing you must accomplish today is...

Hmmm lets see - there's lots I need to get accomplished but with that I require energy and motivation. Hopefully after this cup of coffee I will have some of both. Here's what I need to do today
- call the doctors office and reschedule the kids appointments
- call mom and see if I can bring anything tonight for supper
- laundry so Emily has clean pants
- email off resumes and check job bank
- dishes
- clean the house
and lots more if I have time - it'll be interesting to see how much of this list I have done by the end of the day.

Friday, May 23, 2008

Such Determination

The girls and I went to the park this week. We had so much fun. Emily was bound and determined that she was going to make it across the monkey bars with no help from mommy. It was so awesome watching her- she was filled with so much determination. She knew she could do it and she wasn't going to stop until she got all the way across. It was cute watching her because she was so focused that she was sticking out her tongue the whole time. Absolutely priceless.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Wordless Wednesday

2 Peas Wednesday Blogger Challenge - Creativity

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Why is creativity important?

Creativity means so very many different things to everyone. For me creativity is a means of expressing what is inside of me. It allows me to share my emotions with other people. Whether it is a scrapbook page, a tole painting, or a photograph, the act of creating for me is a way for me to often deal with the emotions or thoughts going on inside of me. Sometimes my panic disorder is really bad and the act of creating for me will help to reduce my anxiety, a form of release that helps me to sort out what's going on that is making me anxious. It allows me to share parts of myself that I would never normally share with others. Creating allows me to be that just ME. I don't think I could not create - it's just in me to create whatever I can whenever I can. I breathe creativity into my life, just as I breathe in air.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

2 Peas Tuesday Blogger Challenge - Big Steps

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What's the biggest step you've taken this year?

I think the biggest step I've taken this year is moving on with my life after Rob walked out on us. I had thought we would be together forever and it was a shock when he walked out. It hurt and of coarse I was upset but I carried on. I was still the kind of mom that my girls needed. I still did what needed to be done in my life. After a few months now I am adjusting to life without Rob - I am working at making my life and the lives of my girls better each and every day. I still miss Rob terribly but I know that our lives here will be great without him. Moving forwards and getting on with my life is the best thing I could do at this point.

Monday, May 19, 2008

2 Peas Monday Blogger Challenge

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How was your weekend

I for one had a wonderful weekend. I got my new mini van on Friday and I went to the car races Saturday and Sunday. Loved them!! Boy am I ever happy that race season has started once again.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Beautiful Sunday 18/05/08

Beautiful Sunday 18/05/08, originally uploaded by dynamo_momof2.

2 Peas Sunday Blogger Challenge

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If you could follow someone around for one day (unseen), who would it be and why?

There is this landscape photographer that I am so inspired by. His name is Jeremy Turner. You can see his work here . His work is fabulous! I love that he shoots equal
ly well in both color and in black and white. I would love to spend a day with him photographing and not knowing I was there so I could see his way of capturing images that speak to the heart. I'd love to see his approach, his technique, concentration - just everything about who he is and what he does. Here is some of his amazing work:

Friday, May 16, 2008

2 Peas Friday Blogger Challenge - Favorite Special Occasion

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What's your favorite special occasion?

I think my absolute favorite special occasion is taking the girls every May to the Tulip Festival in Ottawa. There is just something about this little day trip with the girls that always seems so magical. I don't know if it's the beauty of thousands of tulips everywhere (they are one of my favorite flowers), or if it's the amazement of the children but it is always such a special day for us. They love seeing the tulips and there is always lots for the kids to do and see. There is always musicians and little booths. Always a fun special occasion for our family. The first picture is from the Tulip Festival in 2007 and the second from this year.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

She Made My Heart Melt

Tonight my eight year old Amber asked me to carry her to bed. I was surprised - I can't remember the last time she asked for me to do this. I carried her and gave her an extra squeeze before I put her down on her bed. Then she asked if I would lie with her the way I used to. I again was totally surprised. Again I did as she had asked, and I climbed into bed beside her. After lying there for about five minutes she rolled over underneath my arm and quietly whispered "you are the best mommy ever" and then drifted off to sleep. Tonight this beautiful child melted my heart. I am so thankful she has been entrusted to me.

2 Peas Wednesday Blogger Challenge - A Trip To The Art Museum

feel free to join us if you blog Challenge~ A trip to the Art Museum makes me feel... so absolutely amazing. I feel as if I am in another world ... as if there exists no time ... as if there is no one else there but me. It's a wonderful feeling, a wonderful sense of peace and contentment. My mind becomes so full of ideas and color combinations that I am instantly inspired to create. I love taking my time, wandering around looking at the artists use of color, or technique, or texture. I am inspired both in their creativity and in the emotion that must have been involved in the creating process. When I am looking at the works of others I am compelled to certain pieces. I will often study these pieces for so long trying to focus in on what I am getting out of the piece, and trying to figure out why I was drawn to that certain piece. Art is sometimes a mystery to me ... but it's a mystery that I don't want solved. I want to continue being surprised and moved by art. I want to continue living and breathing art into my life so that I can be amazed and inspired daily.

2 Peas Tuesday Blogger Challenge - I NEED to write!

Join us if you blog Challenge~ Brainstorm 10 reasons why you feel the need to write now.

This is a really great prompt. I'm not sure I could come up with 10 reasons why I write. Sometimes I honestly don't know why I need to write I just feel this intense need to put words down on paper or on the computer. Sometimes it doesn't even matter what I'm writing - I just have to write. Sometimes if I don't get the chance to write I feel like I'm going to burst if I don't get my thoughts out in words. Growing up I always loved English class and writing but it was just classes I was taking. As I have grown up and especially since my panic disorder started writing is a release for me. I don't write for other people I write for myself - it is like a release, so comforting to me. When I am feeling depressed or panicky the act of writing makes me feel more in control. It makes the panic less intense. Like I said, writing is just something I have to do - I can't always explain it but I NEED to be able to write.

Wordless Wednesday - 05/14/08

Monday, May 12, 2008

All I asked for was one nice picture...

and I got this instead...

My Little Budding Artist

Amber is turning into quite the little artist! She is so fun to watch when she is creating something. She is able to have complete focus on what she is doing, and she is happy when she is creating. You can tell she loves art and that it makes her so happy. I am so proud of this little girl.

I'm in Love

I'm in love - completely, absolutely, madly in love with ... this camera. The Digital Rebel XTi. The specs on this camera are fabulous. I love that it is more advanced than the camera I currently own. Having this camera would allow me to learn more and take my photography to a whole new level. I have started saving my pennies but man it's gonna take forever.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Thursday, May 08, 2008

2 Peas Thursday Blogger Challenge - Secrets

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Share something about yourself that people may not know about you.

Hmmmm ... tough question. You see the reason people don't know things about me is usually because I don't tell them. It takes me a long time to open up about myself and the secrets in my life. Something the majority of people don't know (unless you've been reading my blog since the beginning) is that I used to be a crack addict. It is something I am in no way proud of but it is something I do share of myself because some day my story may help someone else. I have been clean from crack for 2 1/2 years now and that is something I am extremely proud of. I knew that I had to do whatever it took to get clean so I did it. Sometimes I wonder where that strength and determination is hiding inside of me now. I got clean because I chose my kids - I wanted to be an awesome mom more than I wanted that next high. Getting clean and staying clean is the hardest thing I have ever done - it is still a struggle sometimes. But I know I want to stay clean for myself and for my girls.

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

2 Peas Wednesday Blogger Challenge - Creating

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Is creating "beautiful art" more important than the process of creating?

When I have a true desire to create, the process by which I do, and the emotions that are involved are the most important part to what I am creating. I am not saying that I do not think about creating my idea of "beautiful art", for I do ... OFTEN. There is this doubt in what I create that sometimes keeps me from creating anything at all. It's like it blocks me from starting to create something because of a fear that once I'm finished "it won't be good enough". I so very often, have a desire to create. I'll get an idea for a creation in my head. I'll focus on it and go through the process of how I'd complete it, and then I'll visualize what the finished piece would be. This is where that fear will come into play. I'll see that finished piece in my head and I'll wonder if I'll do good enough to have it turn out the way I see it. Sometimes, I can get past that fear. Sometimes, I'll visualize a piece, I'll complete the process and I will have a finished piece of art. It's not always exactly like I visualized, but it's always created with true emotion and heart.

Here's a project I completed last night - it did not end up like how I had visualized in my head but I love it! I love that it speaks to me about the woman I am striving to be. I love that I allowed myself to just completely doodle, to let the pen flow freely. I did this because last night I wasn't afraid of how it would turn out. I love that it comes from my heart.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

2 Peas Tuesday Blogger Challenge - Friendship

Come join us if you blog Challenge~ Something that I enjoy doing for a friend...

You know, the thing I enjoy doing the most for a friend is listening. I know it is so much appreciated when I truly, sincerely listen. When I listen with not just my head, but with my heart to. When I listen this way my friends know how much I care and how much it means to me that they are sharing with me. This is something I truly desire in friends so it is something I do in return.

The Reason My Zoey Ran Away

Zoey is just the cutest cat we have ever had. She is about a year old and is still so tiny. She is such an affectionate cat, she loves to cuddle with anyone who will pay attention to her.. Zoey has always been an indoor cat. Needless to say I have never had her fixed because I have never let her outside. That is until she met the cat in the picture. He comes and sits outside our window and meows to her. The two of them will lie beside each other, one on each side of the screen for hours. That is until this past weekend. You see I think Zoey is in love. Zoey decided she didn't like mommy's rules of staying inside any longer and so she broke a hole through the screen so she could run away with her little boyfriend. She came home, I fixed the screen, and the next night she broke through and ran away again. Now mommy is just waiting to see if little kittens are on their way. Kittens is definitely not what I planned for, but at least they'll make cute subjects for photos.

Learning to Ride

I am so very proud of the girls. This spring they decided it was time to take off the training wheels. Boy were they ever determined that they were going to ride a two-wheeler. So, off came the training wheels, and out came the determination. We started with mommy holding up the bike and practiced going back and forth in front of the house practicing keeping balance. They were so proud of themselves. Then it was them trying to see if they could hold up the bike and get started off on their own. NO HELP from mommy was wanted anymore. I was so proud of the girls for practicing and trying so hard. Last night we went into the church parking lot beside our house to practice some more. Before I could believe it both girls just took off on their bikes riding around in huge circles in the parking lot. There was lots of yelling and screaming and clapping on all of our parts- it was so exciting watching them take off on the bikes on their own. Mommy is very impressed!

Monday, May 05, 2008

My thoughts for this morning...

You know it has taken me a really long time to be able to deal with the fact that I have mental health problems. I think really it's because I've always been afraid of what other people thought of me. I have spent so much of my life trying to live up to my idea of "perfect" and believe me mentally I am far from perfect. After my kids were born I started having panic attacks and depression. As I have aged, unfortunately the anxiety, panic, depression and worry have intensified. I used to be afraid of getting help but now I realize that just because I have mental disorders does not make me any less of a person. The fact that I am seeking out help and trying to change this part of my life makes me a stronger person. So today... hats off to mental health professionals. Without you I'd be an even crazier person than I already am.

Sunday, May 04, 2008

GEMS Sunday

Today was GEMS Sunday. Every year at the end of GEMS the girls have GEMS Sunday at our church. GEMS stands for Girls Everywhere Meeting the Saviour. It is a club for girls where they get to learn about God, make new friends, sing, make crafts and earn badges. The girls performed so well today. It was great watching them do their songs with all the actions. They were really impressive. This club is such a positive influence on them I really hope they choose to go again next year.

Beautiful Sunday May 4, 2008

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