Tuesday, April 05, 2011
Is It Genetic?
You know what really scares me? The fact that some day my girls may end up with some kind of mental illness. It absolutely terrifies me thinking that they may someday feel the things I feel. That they may hate who they are. I hate that I may have passed this to them. I find myself now overanalyzing everything they do and say watching for signs and probably reading to much into everything. I wouldn't wish this type of life on anyone ... especially them. I guess all I can do is wait and see what happens. In the meantime teach them to love themselves, and teach them about happiness. So hard to do though when I cannot love who I am and show them that love. So hard to do when I rarely feel happiness.